After the torrential rains of the last 48 hours, it is now somewhat clear. There is nothing like finding your way out of a storm, or at least knowing you can make it to the other side.
This is an excerpt of one of my favorite poems...
So was I once myself a swinger of birches.
And so I dream of going back to be.
It's when I'm weary of considerations,
And life is too much like a pathless wood
Where your face burns and tickles with the cobwebs
Broken across it, and one eye is weeping
From a twig's having lashed across it open.
I'd like to get away from earth awhile
And then come back to it and begin over.
May no fate willfully misunderstand me
And half grant what I wish and snatch me away
Not to return. Earth's the right place for love:
I don't know where it's likely to go better.
I'd like to go by climbing a birch tree,
And climb black branches up a snow-white trunk
Toward heaven, till the tree could bear no more,
But dipped its top and set me down again.
That would be good both going and coming back.
One could do worse than be a swinger of birches.
Robert Frost, Birches
I love the themes of nature and childhood...but it can be read in so many different ways.
What I'm reading...
Well, Robert Frost obviously, but also A Thousand Splendid Suns by Khaled Hosseini. Its pretty good, diving into the history of Afghanistan like The Kite Runner, but from the perspective of women. Really heartwrenching and beautiful and hard to read at the same time. I highly recommend it because it is not only important for us to understand their culture, but also crutial for us to look at the experience of women.
What I'm listening to...
Lots of stuff...Mozella, the new Band of Horses, etc. Jackson Waters is pretty good too if you're in a chill mood, especially the acoustic versions of "Come Undone" and "Center of Attention." Oh! I also get to see Ryan Adams on Monday!! He is one of my favorite artists of all time and I am so excited! I haven't seen him in a few years and am looking forward to hearing some of his new stuff live.
What I should be doing...
Exactly this. Which is really nice and refreshing. School has started again, but I don't have too much to do yet and I deserve (at least part of) a day to myself. :)
What I want to be doing...
Resting and getting over my cold.
Final thought...
It is never too late to start over, there are always new beginnings if you want them.
Peace,
Sparrow
- Mood:
relaxed
I know its been a while, life has been crazy. I've been thinking about posting nearly everyday and then I just don't. Oh well, its not like anyone is reading this anyway. I'm not sure if that makes me happy or sad.
Whats on my mind...
Finals. Like everyone else, I have tons to do and only so much time to do it in. So why am I on LiveJournal? Procrastinating, duh!
Him. I'm going home soon for Christmas and that means I'll have to face not only him, but everything that reminds me of him. I thought I could let go, but apparently I was wrong. I compare everyone to him. I constantly get flashes of our time together in my head. Sometimes they are fleeting thoughts that I can shake away, and other times they last all day, consuming my internal being. I put on a brave face and people just think I'm distracted, but they don't know why.
What I'm reading...
Beyond the Sky and the Earth by Jamie Zeppa (again)! This is one of the only books I can read over and over again. The only problem is it makes me want to travel, get the f--- out of dodge, but I can't. Oh well, its still a great book about being completely immersed in a foreign culture and somehow finding yourself there. It is about fear and also the fact that anyone can live anywhere.
What I'm listening to...
Athlete mostly. Check out the songs "Wires," "Streetmap," and "Trading Air." Oh and I absolutely love the title of "Yesterday Threw Everything At Me." It reminds me of the title of a Band of Horses album, "Everything All The Time" - I love it. I'm also starting to listen to some Christmas music. Not as much as I usually do, but "Baby It's Cold Outside" (both the Ella and Johnny Mercer versions) is so great!!!!
What I should be doing...
Studying, writing 30 pages...the usual.
Shopping for my sister's birthday present and other Christmas gifts.
Running, but this is my time off to I'm reveling in it!
What I want to be doing...
Finding my way back to him.
Exactly this.
What quote is on my mind...
"Running down corridors, through automatic doors
Got to get to you, got to see this through
I see hope is here in a plastic box
I've seen Christmas lights reflect in your eyes"
- "Wires" by Athlete
Final thought...
I am blessed. Too blessed to be stressed.
Sorry to complain, I am one lucky girl.
Peace,
Sparrow
- Mood: relaxed
Hello all,
I'm not sure what I want this to be for me yet. A journal obviously, but more than that a place to share what grabs my attention - whether it be quotes, random experiences, books, music, movies - whatever gets me going. So here goes my first post! Wish me luck...
Whats on my mind...
Its well into October now and the air is cold and crisp. I like the way it wraps around my body when I walk down the street, forcing me to push my hands into my pockets and curl my shoulders in. I love when the seasons change. It reminds me that nothing is permanent, which is both a good and bad thing. I love the colors of fall, though I don't see as many leaves changing here as I would back home. What I really like to do in the fall is stand outside at night (for as long as possible), inhale the crisp air that I swear gets cleaner as it gets colder, and stare up at what I hope is a clear sky. There is something about the stars in the fall.
What I'm reading...
Persepolis by Marjane Satrapi - Its a graphic novel about a girl growing up during the Iranian Revolution and its aftermath. Really interesting...I have gotten into graphic novels before, but this one is great!
What I'm listening to...
I tried to make a playlist called "101 Song to Save Your Life." It ended up being 148 songs that make you sad haha! I really do like it, but I'm trying to narrow it down more, keep it mind-blowing. Heres a few of the artists included: Mother Love Bone, Ryan Adams, Wilco, The Veils.
What I should be doing...
Free writing, studying, sleeping.
What I want to be doing...
Playing my guitar and sleeping. Probably not at the same time.
What quote is on my mind...
"Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplacable spark. In the hopeless swamps of the not quite, the not yet, and the not at all, do not let the hero in your soul perish and leave only frustration for the life you deserved, but never have been able to reach. The world you desire can be won, it exists, it is real, it is possible, it is yours."
Final thoughts...
Flannel is fantastic. I always end up looking like a lumberjack, but thats not going to stop me.
Peace,
Sparrow
- Mood: hopeful
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